Tuesday, June 02, 2009

A Nice Surprise: Angelic Wisdom

As I looked through my old journals today, reflecting on recreating my life today, and working on my own Bible... my own Stories of Life, I found this gem that popped into my life in a chat window years ago.

“We need never seek things because they find us. The desert taught me so.”

I asked what about our Will and Intention:

“You communicate your thoughts and wait, and things happen when they should. You speak the language of the Universe. And Listen!”

This AngelicWisdom became one of my best Lovers, though I never saw him again. I often remember the story of how he learned this when he disappeared into the desert with a group of gypsies. One day I hope to experience the desert.

Write The Book of Your Life

For years I have encouraged students to write their own Bible... the book of the code that they choose to live by. This can take many forms. One of my students writes on the walls of his little cottage, covering them with affirmations and intentions. Another fellow I saw had a three ring binder in which he put inspiring handouts, excercises, and stories. Myself, I found one of my favorite methods to be a little rice paper journal that fits into my pocket; in which I write an ongoing affirmation including more lines as I work on new things:

I am empowered;
I make conscious choices in every moment;
I channel Unconditional Love;
Money flows like Reiki to me and through me;
I grow younger, stronger, healthier every day;
I speak my mind; (added when I felt like I was not speaking up in relationships)

For years, I have thought how good it would be to write my own Bible, within it writing all the most powerful, empowering stories of my life... they stories that make me feel good. Stories like the time I was short on rent money, and I took a walk, ended up meeting a Reiki student who paid me then and there for a training the next week. Stories like the time I bought a bike and immediately rode it forty miles to a gathering; as I rode I thought "I wish I had a pair of sandals", and a couple miles later found a new sports sandal just my size in the middle of the road... I found the matching sandal in the knee high grass along the side of the road. Stories like the time I got tired of detoxing my intestines with diarrhea three months after my Reiki III attunement... I put my hands on my belly, it got warm inside, and I was fine. Stories like the time I prayed to see a supportive Universe, where things like water weren't out to hurt us, and a couple years later found myself drinking water from the Ganges at Varanasi with no ill effect. Stories like the time I wanted a laptop, decided I didn't want to deplete my savings, and that I wanted someone to give me a laptop... and the next day a client offered to buy me a laptop.

For several weeks now, I have been thinking how I need to really parse through my intentions and stories of life and get them organized and be more intentional. Last week I met with a friend and the subject came up about creating such books of intentions and bibles for ourselves. Yesterday I was at a healing circle and set some intentions to wake up today and start living the life I would like to live. Today, I found myself reading through old journals and seeing how intentional I was. And then I came upon the first time I mentioned creating my own Bible... and turns out it was this same friend about six years ago! Interesting how life spirals round and round.

tomorrow I am going to get
up and
find my life exactly how I intend
the room will be perfect
i'm going to have a book

j: yay

d: and that book will be the only
my truth
my story
the story I put to my life

Whirling Dervish

A few weeks ago, I stopped in at a fabulous tea house, OmShanTea, on 14th St in San Franncisco. I got to witness a whirling Dervish, Aziz, spin round and round to the accompaniment of a Sufi duo. Awestruck by the balance as the Dervish spun round ten minutes at a time in a space barely big enough for a hip hop dancer, I tangibly felt the energy shift in the room as the Dervish strengthened his connection to God with what can best be described as throat singing chants.

I met some other faerie nomads after the show, and felt glad I had broken out of my hibernation. I talked a few days later with a friend in Canada and he prodded me: what are your passions? what do you want? do you feel supported? I felt supported in the sense that I have friends and family to stay with. But realized I did not feel supported in being my Highest Self... fully empowered in my magic. I set the intention for my social life to change. And now a month later it has. I have been hanging out at OmShanTea... a few weeks ago I met a Reiki friend there and spent the day talking Reiki. A fellow at the bar mentioned, "So far, most of my income has come from the Universe." when I inquired about how he generated coins on his nomadic ways. He said it is typical for him to have an experience such as needing another hundred dollars to pay rent, and someone coming up to him while he sits on his porch and gifting him a hundred dollars. For years I have been trying to choose such a reality of abundance, though I have by no means mastered it. It takes the way of the warrior to be vigilant with every thought, affirming such abundance rather than scarcity. I've spent far too much time pursuing thoughts such as "how much does that cost" rather than "do I feel called to attend/buy that". Certainly on some levels I do live that philosophy, being 44 yo with less than $5000 in assets, wandering about the world attempting to Be Present, rather than to Be a [x].

Over the past few weeks my social life has shifted to more time at the Tea House. The other night, one person pondered his business not being as busy as he would like, and commented that he knew it was within him... whatever was blocking him from abundance. I gave him a blast of Reiki and he beamed grinning from ear to ear. And a bit later a healer from Yunnan noted that he felt a tension or pain in his left temple when ever a particular incense was burned. Then he commented that he knew it was something within him, after all everything is Divine. The same day I met an amazing being, Leeza Edwards (http://lavenderguidance.com) and discovered one of those rare beings whom evades Love by her mere presence. She told of how she had spent a period of years only taking in such stories as Deepak Chopra and Ram Dass... to reprogram her habitual patterns of thinking... or rather to consciously choose and reprogram what thoughts she would habitually pursue.

Several months ago I found myself getting down at myself because I didn't feel like I fit in at social events. I caught myself falling into a pattern of blaming myself, and realized maybe it was just time to change my normal paths of travel. I'm now inspired by the new circles I travel in. I'm now remembering more how I like to Be.