Saturday, December 29, 2007

Indian Health Medical Wisdom and Wellness

As I watch the changes of time affect myself, my friends, and my extended family, I keep thinking of the wisdom of other cultures that has been overlooked in the colonialism of westerners and their science.

India's tradition of yoga is an age old methodology of ways to maintain and improve the function of your physical body. How to take care of it with food and water. How to exercise it. It's like the owner's manual for a car, except yoga has been around alot longer. I am struck the the simple common sense and self care techniques presented in Secrets of Hatha Yoga. He addresses everything from proper hydration and chewing your food well, to how to relax and sleep well. Another book I have been enjoying is The Eight Human Talents: Restore the Balance and Serenity within You with Kundalini Yoga which has simple exercises listed according to chakras and also describes which organs and systems the exercise addresses. In her decades of practice she has seen students reverse conditions such as Hepatitis C and AIDS as well as depression.

Ayurveda, the traditional Indian medical science has been around since 3000BC. Along with herbal pharmaceuticals, they had techniques for surgery. There was even a kind of mudpack MRI used to diagnose internal disease! There is a wonder movie called Ayurveda: The Art of Being that gives an overview of this ancient medical science. It shows places in which Ayurveda has answers and solutions where Western Medicine does not.

After my Babadham pilgrimage I had a terrible cough that left me winded. I suspected it was exhaustion and nutrition related. A local friend took me to a ayurvedic doctor who gave me some herbs to take for a few days. I was skeptical.... I had envisioned a proper Ayurvedic evaluation determining my "type" and taking my pulse etc. Instead I was asked a few questions and given herbs. I took the herbs and figured I might go to the western doctor if need be. I avoided the western doctor because I feared antibiotics or an asthmatics inhaler, both of which I knew had harmful side effects. In spite of my doubt of the Ayurvedic prescription, within a day I was breathing better and within a week I felt nearly back to normal. Like with any medicine, there is always margin for errors and effectiveness, as well as good and bad practitioners.

In my travels in life, I am constantly amazed at how beneficial being proactive in your own life and health can be. I meet people my age and younger who give in to "old age". I've always sought to improve and strengthen my body. If I get knee pains or muscle pains, I seek to remedy the situation. Often I have found drinking more water alleviates such things. I remember a book by Hulda Crooks (Conquering life's mountains: A collection of writings), a woman who started hiking in her forties and started backpacking and climbing at age 75. She said of her first mountain ascent how she found herself exhausted part way up and started thinking she was perhaps too old. Instead of giving in to the thought, she took a short rest, drank some water, and ate. She was revived! She continued climbing into her 90s and died at the ripe age of 101.

I think of quantum theory and how each thought we make is a prayer, an intention, and a form of self hypnosis. If you are thinking "how weak I are" you will surely find yourself less strong than if you are thinking "how strong I am".

I look at the elders in the Indian mountain tribes and wonder at their physical prowess as they carry large loads from their heads and trek up and down steep mountains with dexterity and balance. I wonder at the ability of older yoga practitioners to sit crosslegged and with more flexibility than I perhaps have ever had. And yet it's not about gymnastics, but rather being able to enjoy your body while you are in it!

I wonder a bit at the colonial attitude of Western Medicine and Science in discounting ancient sciences and traditions that have been around longer than it has. I oft think of the subjectivity of discounting something because you haven't developed the technology or wisdom to measure it. We are all entitled to our experiences whether or not they have been proven. Slowly things are changing and circling around. Years ago, herbs were mainstay. Then science and industrial entrepreneurs came in and extracted isolates from the herbs and discounted the herbs to corner the market. Now herbs are on a comeback as people find the nature has wisdom in keeping herbs complex... in ways that help prevent overdose, toxicity, and side effects that can occur with isolated compounds. Conveniently for capitalists, regulations help ensure their market. Who would buy a product for comforting their stomach if they could step outside their door and pick some mint? And on the flip side, some of the folklore was inappropriate, and the cultural context has dissipated. The witches were burned and the local natural healer in the village have been burned at the stake or lost in the winds of "progress" and movement.

In India those changes are still in their midst. I think it must be similar to the USA's patterns in the early 1900's as industrialization and "progress" disrupted the village communal life.

Perhaps it's time to stretch and take a break from sitting at this computer!!!

Tuesday, November 06, 2007

The Call to "Sadhu it"

I don't want to go back to the US. I just want to walk in the India mountains. A pilgrim. A sadhu. A sack with a sheet of plastic to lay on. A sheet to wear. Maybe two. Maybe a sketchbook. A stone for an altar. A handful of rupees.

I just want to walk about on the Earth and feel Her through my feet. Feel the song of the Universe in my soul. Feel the Life Force aka Reiki aka Unconditional Love emanating from the trees and plants and everything.

In India I can do this. Roads are walkable. Especially pilgrimage routes. Tea houses, food stalls, ashrams etc provide accomodations. No need to carry anything. Easy to trust.

Sadhus roam. Ashrams house. I am only an oddity in that I am white and pierced. To sing. To walk barefoot. No one will think that strange.

Part of me knows I can do this anywhere. Communion with the Universe, Spirit, Life Force...whatever you want to call it... is possible anywhere. The vibration abounds.

And yet there is more clutter to go through. In India no one will think I am crazy. Pedestrians abound. In the US, people would think different.

In the U.S., cars cellpones, freeways all clutter the path. Gadgets and consumables distract. Thoughts of "what am I doing with my life" plague me. Dollars become a barrier. Still I know somehow the same abundance and life force pervade it all... just through a different veil.

I was receiving Reiki the other day and I nearly burst away in glee mid session... like a happy rebirth! Then the "healer" grabbed my feet. Pain from part of my sole where I pushed too hard in my 105 km barefoot pilgrimage 3 months ago. The first day I walked 40 km in a frantic intention to find my friends from Sikkim. I didn't find them. I spoiled my feet and my chance to enjoy 8 days of leisurely walking the 105 km. I ignored my feelings in the moment. The Reiki brought to my face this pattern of trying too hard to transmute an uncomfortable present for some future intent.

The "healer" suggested I focus on some experience of joy... I remembered a great lover I enjoyed for an evening only to never see/hear from him again.

My nomadic life is chaos. My life as a whole is one of non-attachment... at least in theory. Many parts are non-attachment in practice as well. Virtually all I have ever know I have abandoned. My suburban childhood was abandoned for horse and buggy. My horse farming was abandoned for coming out in San Francisco. My life has changed radically from naive suburban boy to graduate student to itinerant horsefarmer to Reiki healer/artist/whore in San Francisco to nomadic world adventurer. One of my friends suggested I am a Radical Faerie American Sadhu.

My erotic life, once ecstatic, has fallen by the wayside in my travels. So lame I have transcended it. Tossed about from town to town and continent to continent at eh whim of my intuition such that I can't seem to remember why I am here when I get here. The fight between ego and intuition leaves me miserable at times. The ego second guesses the intuition. It sees the good in every place... often seeing the good in the place I am not.

After 3 years of being nomadic I felt like I regained my center a few weeks ago trekking in the Uttarkhand mountains. Joy in every step. Reiki all around me. I realized I need to make this trekking a part of my life now.

I see that the ability to do a walking pilgrimage is one of the unique gifts of India. And I am ready for more!

But now my Spirit says to go to the USA to visit my aging relatives. And I feel torn. I feel fear of loosing my center again.

The last few days I have felt the call to abandon the US. I felt like I reached a point of non-attachment with my life there. But then the call to visit family comes. What to do?

Almost a year ago I was meditating in an ashram in Florida and I got the message "Get rid of three things every day until you have nothing and then you will find yourself!" After the initial period it was clear I could accumulate, but always channeling three things a day away. These gifts could be on physical or spiritual levels. The larger context of giving and receiving.

Since then I almost get to the point of doing it... getting rid of everything... not really following instructions, but rather doing it in one lump. Its great until I get to my pack and see my things. I can't get rid of my money belt or passport. Then there are the bank cards. The toothbrush and floss sneak in. Then I think of trekking and how the fleece will be handy. Pretty soon I feel stuck with the whole damn bag of stuff! And I laugh at myself.

I think back to my pilgrimage in August when I lived for 2 weeks out of a small shoulder bag. A sheet of plastic to sleep on. A couple of cloths to use as a "skirt" or shawl. A tee shirt. A pair of underpants. A pair of soft shorts. Sunscreen. A notebook. And a torch (flashlight). The pilgrimage was barefoot... no need for shoes. A photocopy of my passport and a few rupees sufficed. Tea stalls and rest houses lined the pilgrimage route. It was a joy to travel so lightly. Catching a bus or train felt like a whim. It was heaven.

A few weeks ago I scattered my backpack's contents across the bed. I saw the reality attached to each item. winter clothes meant I would never learn Tumo, the Buddhist technique for generating innner heat. My flashlight meant I would never trust my night vision completely. The list of email addresses meant I would not trust the universe to bring me face to face with whom I was meant to interact. The watch meant I would not trust my inner guide. Item by item I saw the chosen and unchosen realities. Rather then trusting the Universe to provide me with shelther when I needed it, I carried a tent. And also rather than trusting the Universe to provide me with a tent when I decide to go backpacking/camping... I carried a tent.

Collectively my belongings meant I could not walk out the door on a whim.

It's neither good nor bad... nor right nor wrong. In ways I see how I live the American version of the sadhu with just a bigger sack of stuff. Sadhus carry a blanket or two tied into sacks with their stuff. Chilom perhaps. Torch. Alms bowl. Perhaps some medicinal herbs or salves. A walking stick. Their stuff is not high tech nor ultralight. My walkabouts cover continents. I can't depend on ashrams to house me. My list of stuff is bigger. The lightest travellers are the students or working class. They can afford restaurants and lodging with blankets. So they can step out with the clothes on their back.

I think of how I can carry myself as a sadhu back to the states to visit my aging relatives. If I would abandon my outdoor sports.. hiking, climbing, camping... it would be easy. I reflect on the vision I had of myself as an old man carrying nothing. No journal. No sketchbook. No camera. Too busy living life to bother recording it. I wonder if and when I will adapt that vision. Perhaps it was merely a dream. Perhaps I have some years of climbing and camping first. Or perhaps I am just fighting destiny....

Friday, October 26, 2007

Just 3 Minutes Per Day

I am continually amazed by the power of intention and prayer.

I remember several years ago trying to break some depression due to a failed relationship. I set the intention to be a channel of unconditional love and joy the next day... to be happy. The next morning I woke up having forgotten my prayer. I worked through the morning grogginess and suddenly found myself having a great day for no apparent reason. Then I remembered my prayers the night before.

A few weeks ago, I felt myself floundering and made a list of short term goals. Four were mundane about things to do in Rishikesh. One was to be a "meditative sadhu bliss shaman"... which carries a particular image I have of myself. I realized that of my five short term intentions, that was the one I had the most control over as the others related to things with other people. And furthermore, that if I achieved that one, nothing else would matter... everything would flow... or at least I would be blissful! The next day I found myself spontaneously triggered into a blissful and mystical state while I listened to a tedious ego based debate on enlightenment! Everyday since then I have found myself achieving a blissful mystical state at odd times as I go about my day. I remember to think about my intentions and pray a few moments a day, and oft times find myself forgetting the intentions... only to be grabbed by Spirit and put into the state as I roam about.

I've been trying to meditate more formally, yet find myself no expert. And often my attention span is short. And yet Spirit grabs me! The Universe supports my momentary prayers!

Just a few moments of remembering can trigger profound changes!

So I urge you to just take even a moment. Remember, prayer, ask for change or bliss or whatever you might like to BE!

I wish you enlightenment in the best sense of the word! May you be Blissful!

Forgiving Others by Seeing the God(dess) in Them

I have found when I am angry or frustrated with someone that if I try to see them as an expression... a channel of my highest spirit, then I can see the gift of their action and release the past.

For instance if someone I am dating stops seeing me, I can say to myself that there was a reason my Spirit kept them from continuing to see me. That my Spirit knows better than I what is right for me. Usually in hindsight, I can see why a relationship didn't work out.

Or perhaps Spirit sends someone to challenge me for me to learn to trust myself or assert myself.

You can take any person or situation in your life, and try to find why your Spirit might have given it to you... what is the lesson... the harvest?

DhamiBoo On Death


Know that it will almost surely happen! It is the one thing we can pretty well trust in life! Make friends with it!

Know that death is only in form. The Spirit lives on to choose another form when it wants to.

The cells live on as part of the Earth... transmuting into soil and plants.

You need not worry about karma because many have prayed for the release of karma for all sentient beings.

Know that you have a lot of choice in your death through your conscious and unconscious choices. Intend well! Set your intentions about how and when you would like to die. Ask Spirit to give you that or something better! When you find yourself worrying about death, remember your intentions!

The challenge in dealing with death of others is our attachment to dreams. It is the loss of the dream of future time together in the physical form that we are attached to. But the future is always a dream.

All we can really hope to experience is Love (unconditional). Send love, receive love!

Thursday, October 25, 2007

General Information About Reiki


Just for today,
let go of worry,
let go of anger,
live fully,
be kind,
and be thankful!


Reiki means Universal Life Force Energy and can also be thought of as Unconditional Love. Reiki is a traditional Japanese laying-of-hands technique. During a treatment, the Reiki practitioner channels Reiki energy through their hands into your body and aura. Your higher-self guides the energy where it is needed to balance energy fields, relieve stress, and facilitate healing to achieve highest possible good. Reiki can never do any harm; if it is unwanted, it just goes back to the earth. Reiki works simultaneously on the physical, emotional, mental, and spiritual levels. My clients often report feeling as if they are in a warm, loving cocoon and a feeling of deep inner peace. Often they fall into a trance or dream-state having visions of what they are letting go of or clarity about changes they need to make in their life for healing. Healing is often instantaneous. Dr. Mikao Usui rediscovered Reiki in the late 1800's after receiving the Reiki energy in a vision quest. Reiki was given to him as an answer to his search for the healing secrets of the Ancients. Reiki mimics healing techniques from Tibet and Egypt, and is purported to be the same energy that Christ and Buddha used in laying of hands.

This informations excerpted from

Who can benefit from Reiki training?

Reiki is a useful tool for anyone interested in healing themselves or others. You can use it for fun, or professionally. Reiki combines well with other therapies. Doctors, nurses, chiropractors, massage therapists, sex workers, counselors, acupuncturists, etc have all combined Reiki successfully into their practices. Reiki can be used on plants and animals. Reiki also helps you gain awareness of subtle energies. Those interested in gaining such awareness find Reiki training helpful. Shamen, witches, sadhus, crystal healers, etc also find Reiki a useful tool in their practice.

Reiki training can benefit almost anyone interested in healing or energy awareness. It is as useful around the home for friends and family as it is professionally. Reiki can also be used as a form of meditation. The training activates your own self-healing as well as energy awareness and your ability to heal yourself and others.


Imagine having an upset stomach, putting your hand on it, feeling warmth and love permeate your stomach, and having the upset stomach heal! With Reiki, such miracles happen. By learning Reiki you develop the ability to channel Universal Life Force Energy (also known as Chi, Ki, Prana, Unconditional Love, etc...) through your hands to promote healing. Reiki attunements also increase your energy awareness--the ability to sense energies of people, plants, animals, houses, rocks, and more! This helps empower you by giving you sensory input to feed your intuition. Although Reiki is similar to other energy work modalities, and laying of hands techniques, I find the story of Reiki one of the more empowered stories to work within, and it's simplicity removes alot of ego and power dynamics.


I teach Reiki in three levels: Reiki I, II, and III. Each level activates your own self-healing and transformation as well as your ability to heal others and even plants and animals. Reiki works on physical, emotional, and karmic levels. I provide instruction manuals, certificates, training, attunements and ongoing support.

"Attunements" are initiations that allow you to channel the energy or strengthen your ability if you are completing levels II or III. The attunement also activates your own personal transformations according to your personal highest good.

In Reiki I, I activate your ability to channel Universal Life Force Energy and teach you the definition, history, and basic hand positions for a self-healing treatment or for working on another person.

In Reiki II, I teach you the sacred Reiki symbols which allow you to specifically address physical, emotional, or karmic healing, as well as do distance healings. Also, you will learn how to heal the aura or subtle energy field around the body.

Reiki III is the master/teacher's degree for those who are truly devoted to Reiki. You learn the master symbols as well as a symbol for spirit liberation specific to this lineage of Reiki. And you learn how teach Reiki and how to pass "attunements" to initiate others into Reiki.

I can teach you any level in 2 hours individually, in person. I occasionally offer group classes. Or, I can teach you via distance by sending you a manual (either via snail mail, or electronically) to read and going over any questions by phone, email, or mail. Then we pick a time for you to receive your "attunement" (the activation of your ability to channel Reiki energies). Since energy goes through time and space this is no problem.


Reiki I: Reiki I is a good staple tool for anyone. It will open you to knew ways of seeing and feeling so that you can help yourself and others heal. If you feel called to take Reiki I, by all means take it! Reiki II: Of course, you must have Reiki I before you can take Reiki II! If you have Reiki I and are using it regularly on yourself and/or others, then you are a likely candidate for Reiki II. My personal view, is that

Reiki II is the "professional" degree for those who wish to practice Reiki on others regularly. The ability to send Reiki by distance makes it a perfect supplement to any work with other people. I know psychiatrists and counselors who use Reiki II subtlely in their practices. Of course, massage therapists, acupunturists, psychic surgeons, and other healing arts practitioners can easily use Reiki in their practices. And, if you just like to use Reiki casually in your own life, Reiki II will certainly give you alot more empowerment.

Reiki III: Again, the prerequisite is Reiki II. Reiki III is for those who are truly devoted to Reiki as a practice in their own life and sincerely interested in teaching Reiki.

Personally, I listen to Spirit and each student's story to decide if they are ready to proceed to the next level. Some lineages say that one must wait a certain period of time between each attunement. Others teach all three levels to students over the course of a weekend. My own personal preference is to spread the attunements out. Each is a very special day and I believe in honoring each stage of your personal growth. That being said, there is an occasional student who is very used to working with energy and magic, and is willing and ready to take the attunements more rapidly.

My personal process was that I received a spontaneous attunement to be aware of and channel energies. About 6 weeks later I fell upon a Reiki I training at a gathering and that gave me a mental framework with which to view the energy I was feeling in my body. After my Reiki I training, I read every book I could find and Reiki and played with the Reiki energy every day. At the minimum, I gave myself a daily treatment, and I occasionally gave a friend a treatment as well. Over the next two months, I started informally incorporating Reiki into massage work I was doing. I started to do informal distance work based on what hints I could find in my reading. About that time, I found a local Reiki Master and received my Reiki II attunement. I figured I would wait a year before my Reiki III attunement. In the meantime, I used Reiki II almost every day in my erotic massage practice and also personally to work on myself and friends. I continued to read everything I could on Reiki and energywork. One day, about 4 months after my Reiki I attunement, and 2 months after my Reiki II attunement, I can home from the bicycle shop I worked at and felt energy buzzing throughout my body. I immediately sensed it was time for my Reiki III attunement. I called my local Reiki Master and got an appointment. In hindsight, the third attunement was just right, being a few days before I traveled back East to clean up the last of my belongings from my prior life as a horse farmer. I gave my first attunement by distance to my acupuncturist. And, within two weeks of my third attunement, I taught a Reiki I class to 13 students at a gathering.

This is an excerpt from

Reiki I Manual

Please enjoy a free Reiki I Manual at:

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Wednesday, October 24, 2007

My Gift: Free Reiki I Attunements from Now until 02Jan2008

To share my gratitude for Reiki and what it has done for me in my life, I offer this gift to anyone who wishes to receive it.

From now until 02Jan2008, anyone who wishes may study and receive a Reiki I attunement from me via distance. All you have to do is

(1) read and understand the Reiki I Manual, (2) receive the distance Reiki I attunement and feel the energy in your hands, (3) give yourself one full Reiki treatment, (5) give another person a full Reiki treatment (6) promise to giveyourself a Reiki treatment and work with Reiki energy every day for the next 21 days, (7) promise to use this wonderful gift on yourself and others to make life more enjoyable and fun, and (8) promise to drink plenty of water during the 21 day assimilation process and Reiki yourself and/or meditate to receive distance Reiki from DhamiBoo if any detox symtoms (emotional, physical, or spiritual) arrise.

You can read about Reiki at and find the Reiki I Manual at

You can find the same information posted below.

To receive the attunement (initiation) as per step 2 above, simply pick a time for yourself when you will be uninterrupted. Find a quiet play to sit or lay down to meditate with the intention of receiving the attunement. You will likely trance out a bit and feel energy in your body. Afterwards, your hands will start buzzing with Reiki energy. The attunement also works with your higher self and brings about great self-transformation in your life, bringing you into greater alignment with your higher spirit and path of highest good. There is no need to inform me about the time you choose to receive the attunement because the attunement goes through time and space and is already waiting for you to receive it.

If you want an electronic certificate, you can fill out the registration form (blog entry below) and email it to me. Because I am travelling, it may take me some time to email your certificate to you. If you do not require a certificate, just enjoy! If you do not wish to receive a certificate, there is no need to register.

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Reiki Registration



If you find this gift useful, you can leave a donation for DhamiBoo so you can enjoy the spirit of giving too. But it is not required! It’s a Gift!


I joyously affirm that I (1) have read and understand the Reiki I Manual, (2) received the distance Reiki I attunement and felt the energy in my hands, (3) have given myself one full Reiki treatment, and (5) have given another person a full Reiki treatment.

I promise to give myself and Reiki treatment and work with Reiki energy every day for 21 days. I promise to use this wonderful gift on myself and others to make life more enjoyable and fun! I promise to drink plenty of water during the 21 day assimilation process and Reiki myself and meditate to receive distance Reiki from DhamiBoo if any detox symtoms (emotional, physical, or spiritual) arrise.

The date I received the attunement and completed my Reiki I training is:


The name I would like to appear on my certificate is:


Monday, October 22, 2007

Reiki: Total Devotion and Enlightenment

Reiki is such a gift. It is such magic. It is so powerful when we totally embrace it.

A useful meditation from William Lee Rand is to do Reiki on yourself, with the following thought: "I surrender completely to the Reiki energy and the Source from which it comes."

Reiki is Divine and goes only to highest good. So there is no need for fear.

And if you realize that there is absolutely no reason you (if you are giving Reiki to yourself) or the person you are giving Reiki to ought not to be healed, whole, healthy, and blissful, then you will find Reiki miraculous! You will not limit your use of Reiki. Why should we hold onto Karma? Why should we hold onto limitations?

After my Reiki III attunement I went into three months of deep intestinal cleansing (i.e., diarrhea). I tried this and that. Finally, one night I said, "This is silly! I'm a Reiki Master and I've been helping other people heal themselves of all sorts of afflictions. I can heal THIS!" I put my hands on my belly and it grew all warm inside and I was done with the diarrhea!

Futher, when you bring Reiki into your meditation of life, keeping awareness of it as you go about your day, you discover universal Oneness. You walk down the street, perhaps chanting "Mother I feel you under my feet, Mother I feel your heartbeat, heya heya heya, ya heya heya ho, heya heya heya hey-ya ho!" (a chant I learned at a Rainbow gathering years ago). You feel the Reiki energy all around you. You realize that it pervades everything.

You realize that when you are angry at someone, the best thing to do is send them Reiki. What could be better than their own healing and "enlightenment"? You give it to yourself.

Reiki can be another form of meditation. It can be another way to tap into superconsciousness. It can be another way to tap into Oneness.

When you realize that Reiki aka Life Force aka Unconditional Love, you can see the world through total "bhakti" or devotion.

It's amazing!

Reiki is such a gift! I feel like everyone should have the gift of Reiki. To this end, I send you free distance Reiki energy right now! And I will shortly be announcing free Reiki I attunements for whoever wishes to receive them!

Friday, October 19, 2007

Kundalini: Aghora II Review

I just finished the book Kundalini: Aghora II by Robert E. Svoboda. Overall the books reads in a similar manner to Carlos Castanada's tales of Don Juan, except that Aghora is a Hindu tradition. Aghora carries similar traits to Don Juan's tradition in that it is a power-over rather than empowerment based tradition. It is fulls of rites and rituals that must be followed strictly under fear of mayhem and mishap. Aghora supposedly carries a very "left path" of Tantra in which rituals could employ what other traditions might consider abominations. One definition I read about says that feces and urine might be used ritually. I found no descriptions of such in this book. It talks alot about guru/disciple relationships and power trips to debase unruly egos.

I found the book a bit tedious in it's readability as it mainly records conversations with Aghora Master Vimalananda. Sticking with it, I found some interesting tales of supernatural powers and I gleaned some nice insights from the book:

The speed of thought is quicker than that of light. So that the creative force of our consciousness and intention is instant. Well, the book claims that only the thought of Rishis is that powerful. I think perhaps we are all capable of such powers with some study.

In sadhana (spiritual practice) there are two paths: jnana (my wish), and bhakti (thy wish). In jnana, one works with personal intention. In bhakti, one surrenders to God with pure devotion. According to the book, you must choose one path or the other. An example is given in which a manifestation of water is needed. The jnana shapeshifts and goes down a well to bring up water. The bhakti worships the world with such love that water bubbles up out of the well on it's own accord.

"A real sadhu says, 'Why should I bother about trying to establish something? If God wants me to have it I will have it.' This is the right attitude; it shows that the sadhu has full faith in his deity. Only if he has no faith will he try to collect money, or disciples, or whatever."

Wednesday, October 17, 2007

Discernment Vs Judgment Vs Forgiveness

Discernment is about the Present. Judgment is a story that shackles the Future and Past. Forgiveness is about creating the Present and Future.

Discernment is saying, "You are overcharging me for that banana. I don't enjoy that. Please give me a reasonable price or I won't buy my banana here." Judgment is saying, "You always rip me off and cheat me." Forgiveness is allowing myself to be happy and abundant regardless of what I pay for the banana, and creating a space through communication and action for you to be honest and reasonable.

Bliss, Enlightenment, and Judgment

One of the questions in the TV interview that was proposed but wasn't asked on camera was: "What is enlightenment?"

I was thankful because I've never really formally studied the subject. I know that Buddhist's and Hindu's strive for it, that it's something about transcending the cycles of death and rebirth and suffering. But it's never been a quest of mine.

Yesterday I was in Rishikesh and happened in on a lively dialogue about attaining enlightenment and what people should and should not do to attain it. One one side was a lady who claimed to have been in an elightened state for 7 years. She said she glowed so much that people stared at her and cars crashed. She said she didn't eat for the period because she wasn't hungry. On the other side was a guy who is a whiz kid and went into the quantum physics side of trying to explain things. Their egos seemed to clash in an apparent disaggreement over whether one could actually achieve non-attachment and if so how. They seemed to be saying the same thing in different parables.

I was rather annoyed by the conversation because it seemed to be a clash of egos. And it seemed to be one of those intellectual conversations that was going way beyond direct experience, and an attempt to explain the unexplainable. Plus the two main conversationists, weren't very amenable to the other two of us adding our sense or experience. I did manage to get a lay definition of enlightenment of "extreme state of bliss." That I could relate to. In fact I feel like I've experienced alot of bliss that seemed to transcend the physical realms. The catalysts for such events have included just following my heart, ecstatic orgasisms, meditations, Reiki and other healing modalities, visits to spiritual sites, visits to nature, yoga, and probably a few other things I'm not remembering. There was a year or two after a Native American Ceremony where I prayed for being Unconditional Love and Empowerment and learning to shift realities and Sexually Transmitted Love and Joy as a reality for the whole world, that I was going out of my body a good ways and often feeling rebirthed into a state of ecstatic bliss.

Perhaps what I've claimed as my spiritual practice: Unconditional Love, Joy, Empowerment, Abundance, and Fun is some form of Enlightenment? Though I must admit that my reality does not see a need to end the cycle of death and rebirth; I feel like our Spirits choose to incarnate to have fun and experience things in the physical form. Because it's an empowered choice to be a person as opposed to float around in space as a spirit, or be a tree or ant or something... there's no need to "end a cycle". Just don't choose to be reborn again. And because I believe in true Forgiveness and the Mutability of all things... no karma traps.

The funny thing was as I sat in on this conversation, I suddenly felt an extreme state of bliss come over me. In fact as the woman talked about feeling the atman and it detachment from the body and physical realm, I felt myself leaving my body a bit! I had experienced this state before. Not so strongly for a while. It felt like an old familiar horse. I started to remember other ecstatic times. So I sat in a state of Bliss, while occasionally the woman looked at me and explained what I needed to do... the practices I needed to practice for long periods to get to nirvana! I laughed and said, "Well, I feel pretty damn good right now!" Their chatter went on and I wondered why they just didn't try to practice enlightenment rather than arguing about it. I tried to beam it out at them and even got everyone to take some deep breaths together before we parted.

My two friends went on about the woman laughing that they didn't really believe her and that she seemed to be a bag of wind. Today, they asked a friend who stayed on after we left what she said about us. He said she said she thought we were three guys trapped in fashion and full of hot air! I laughed at the mirrored judgment! And suggested we ought to just practice and keep our mouths shut!

Meanwhile last night my bliss kept on for hours. I decided to intend/pray to remain in bliss the rest of my life... perhaps a more tangible prayer than being a channel of unconditional love and joy. I looked at my hotel room full of stuff and saw how each item attached itself to a reality. A jacket meant I would depend on it rather than my own ability to ask my body to be warm (what the Buddhist's call Tumo, I think). How books on healing and spirituality implied that I couldn't just "look within" and/or have my own direct connection to Spirit. (I keep getting the message that I don't need to study any more but rather just practice what I know and trust my intuition). I made a retroactive prayer for all beings in all realms, sentient or otherwise to be enlightened to a state of bliss such as this or better. I thought perhaps that was even better then praying for healing which I sometimes think is just an ego thing of judgment that creates a need for sick people.

I remembered the day before when I tried an excercise in a meditation book where you write out "What is the way you want to Be now? (purpose, meaning, short and long term): I had set the intention to Be this vision I had of myself as a "meditative sadhu bliss shaman". I wondered if that was why I had suddenly jumped into this state of being during the conversation? was it a silent prayer for me from the conversationists?

I laughed and smiled through my whole body. I prayed this for everyone! I pray this for you! So far I have been keeping pretty well in it for over 24 hours... I'll keep you posted!

Unconditional Love: Short and Sweet

I was interviewed in Rishikesh a few days ago for a Ukrainian TV broadcast about Spirituality in India. One of the questions I was asked was to define Love ... which stumped me because I usually only think in terms of Unconditional Love... so I stumbled and said Love is a vibration. My mind clicked in about 6 hours later long after the fact and recalled that I've written and thought much about Unconditional Love and I came up with a new short and sweet definition:

Love: seeing the Divinity in something or someone.

Unconditional Love: acknowledging and/or believing in the Divinity in something or someone even when you can't see it.

Loving ourselves is about seeing and/or acknowledging our own Divinity.

Divinity is merely acknowledging that we are all a part of creation... you can insert God's or Goddess' creation if that is how you see the world. You can also insert other words such as beauty in place of Divinity.

Thursday, October 11, 2007

Trading Glances, Trading Stones


In Sarnath, a village near Varanasi where Buddha gave his first sermon, I wandered by a street vendor peddling souvenirs. He had a clay Buddha sculputure which I'd seen before. I'd been offered these sculptures for anywhere from 10rs to 10 US Dollars. The peddler offered me one at 5rs. Really unbelievably cheap. That's only about 0.40 USD. I purchased one. Then immediately wondered why I had purchased it. My bag is heavy enough. And this is a relatively heavy and bulky thing. I carried it back to my room. A day later I was playing mind games with myself stressing over the decision of going to Ladakh even though the season was late, or just going to Uttarkhand which was closer. Ladakh had been the reason I thought I was returning to India, and I had procrastinated the summer away. I found the Buddha scuplture in my bag and pulled it out to put it on my altar. As soon as I held it, I felt the energy of the Boddhi Tree in Bodhgaya! My body vibrated with energy. I was amazed as I hadn't consciously charged this cheap clay sculpture. But my Spirit had! It jarred me back to Reality and out of my headspin. I enjoyed some nice meditations with it! Even though it is heavy, I haven't parsed it out of my heavy backpack. I know I will at some point... it will have a better home with someone I meet. But for now, I'm savouring it!


On the train from Varanasi to Rishikesh about a month ago, the train car was virtually empty. An Isreali couple and I made up the foreign component. A swami sat in the next compartment within eyesight.

My journey to Rishikesh was to see about doing some Reiki with a student of mine. I hadn't done much Reiki in months. The Israeli lady came over and sat down and said she was ill... stomach cramps. I told her that I didn't have any medicines, but that I could do some Reiki. To my surprise, she said she was familiar with Reiki and would appreciate some. So I pulled out some of my stones and crystals and went to work on her for about 5-10 minutes. I had the white stone gifted to me in Sikkim that was supposed to be good for stomach pain. I had the woman hold it in her hand while I did Reiki on her. Her cramps went away. I loaned her the stone, a crystal, and the magic Buddha carving for the afternoon.

After I finished doing Reiki, I returned to my seat. I noticed the Swami looking over at me. I sensed that he had felt the energy moving around when I did the Reiki. Our eyes met and we held our gaze for several minutes and exchanged unconditional love. The Israeli couple and I ended up traveling with the Swami from Haridwar to Rishikesh together. I found the Swami to be one of the most centered loving beings I had ever met. He said he'd worked high up in the government until seven years ago. Then he became a Swami.. a Sadhu ... devoting his life to Spirit. He was slim and in good shape now. He said before he "dropped out" and started some kundalini yoga he was fat. He said the government still wanted him to come back to work. But he would not "go back". He said if we ever needed any help to call him... he still had valuable connections. It was a treat to meet such an amazing man.


As you may remember, one of the Bethehem Grid Crystals I carried from the US went to a fellow in Thailand. He'd given me some local Thai stones in return. The larger of these I charged with "the Grid" and figured I would anchor someplace in India. Turned out that Bodhgaya was where it wanted to call home. I put it in a small stupa at the Main Temple in view of the Boddhi Tree where Buddha became enlightened... to add the Christ consciousness of empowerment and unconditional love into the energy vortex there. I expect it will help the surrounding communities in Bihar as well as all the visitors to the Boddhi Tree.

I still had a large quartz crystal charged with "the Grid" that I knew would tell me where to anchor it. When I got to Rishikesh, I soon felt that the crystal wanted to be anchored in Shiva's Hump in Kedarnath... a Hindu pilgrimage site near one of the sources of the Holy Ganga. To my mind, putting the lingam shaped crystal in the hump made some sexual sense. I had visions of an ass shaped rock in Kedarnath where it would go. I blessed the crystal with my most sacred juices. Left handed Tantra, I suspect.

I set off to Kedarnath with this Holy purpose in mind, to plant the crystal there. Kedarnath is a healthy high altitude trek. I decided to rest one night part way up the climb. I settled into a dormitory by myself, only to be disturbed by a family caught in the rainy evening. I fell asleep nonetheless, only to be awakened by the son tapping on my shoulder to see if I knew how to give injections. I looked over and saw the father gasping into an oxygen mask. I soon learned that he was a kidney patient and his lungs were congested. I had no needle skills to offer but gave him Reiki, until a local doctor arrived and spent 1.5 hours trying to find a vein to inject... unsuccessfully. After he left, I gave the man some more Reiki and had him hold the crystal charged with "the Grid". He seemed to appreciate it and feel positive effects. I let him hold the crystal over night. In the morning I broke some small pieces off the crystal to use for anchors in my journeys and left the larger chunk with the man. Somehow the crystal was called to be with him. I'm curious to know what it will do for him and his life! But I expect I will never know what magic it had in store for him.

One of the pieces I discreetly dropped into the stone hump inside the Hindu temple atop Kedarnath while the Hindu priest looked longingly at me, wishing to sell me a ritual. It wasn't nearly as magical an experience as I expected. I later laughed at my expectations, and rejoiced in the magic of how the crystal tricked me to bringing it to the kidney patient!


Above Kedarnath, which lays in a high valley (over 3000 m... 12,000 ft or so if I remember correctly), is a glacial lake where Ghandhi ashes were spread... or attempted to be spread. A traveller told me of a book about the matter written by a guy who was there witnessing the event. The wind kicked up and blew Gandhi's ashes in his face and created quite a stir in his life. It was funny to find myself at this lake above Kedarnath several months after hearing the story. Rain came down hard. Some sleet even at the high elevation. I nearly turned back before I reached the lake. A group of Indians trudged past me and so I perservered and followed them. To my glee, it turned out I only 10 minutes away from the lake. The fog, or rather cloud that was laying on the mountain was thick. And I could barely see a small portion of the greenish lake maybe 30 feet below me in glacial till. I made my prayers witha piece of the Grid Crystal and tossed it into the lake to charge the water/ley lines with The Grid.

Out of the fog came a Hindu monk from Bangledesh. He said he'd hiked over from Tapovan near Gangotri, the main source of the Ganga. I didn't think much of it. I'd met a fully loaded backpacker earlier that day who'd done the same thing. I'd also met a Sikh man, who had done the same with guide and porter. I figured the monks guides were somewhere in the mist. The monk waited as I visited a cairn and finished my business. I was a bit dismayed to have my enjoyable solitude disrupted, and my pace slowed down abit... I intended to get off the mountain quickly.

I picked up a stone that caught my eye... charged with Gandhi Tal Energy! And walked down the mountain with this monk. I ended up walking too much in fact... trying to get all the way down the mountain in one day, after week's of no hill climbing. By the time we reached Gaurikund my legs and knees especially were in pain. I wasn't very good company. The monk bent my ear telling me how wonderful meditation was... you could simply concentrate on a pain and it would go away. I tried. I couldn't do it. My knees screamed at me. The monk went to an ashram. I crashed in a guest house.

I lay down that night thoroughly depressed, in pain, wanting to go home wherever that was! I had just discovered the joy of hiking and walking barefoot and feeling "the Mother" under my feet, only to have my knees and their pain take it away from me. I tried to Reiki myself. My mind was focused on failure and thinking of how I'd have to abandon my other plans for treks in the region. I started to feel congestion and thought I was catching a cold. Then I had the remembrance of the "detox" paradigm... of course my body was shedding some toxins from my lungs and sinuses... it was the most excercise I'd gotten in a while. I didn't have to let my consciousness hypnotize me into a "cold". I picked up the stone from Ghandi Tal without much thought. The vibrations of the stone reverberated through my body! I soon started remembering the other times I had healed my knees through magic/intention/energywork!

I stayed there two days getting the best rest and sleep I've had in months... maybe years. Traveling can be hard for sleep. Different places, different energies, different noises. Staying with people can bring different expectations. I spent hours laying in my room both resting and being in some sort of trance state with past experiences from my life flashing through my mind's eye. I enjoyed the public hot springs. Within a day I was walking pretty well and feeling little pain.

Four days later I started my ascent to Hemkund (4340 m) and felt a vestige of pain in my left knee. I started chanting the Sikh chant "Ik Ongkar Sat Nam Siri Wahe Guru" and within two hours there was no longer a trace of pain. I spent 4 days trekking up that mountain and exploring the Valley of Flowers. The vibrations of joy from that valley and also the sacred lake of Hemkund (the 10th Sikh guru allegedly meditated there) were amazing!!!!

Wednesday, August 29, 2007

Spontaneous Healing of Depression in Bodhgaya

I met an Australian guy name Jon at the oasis of Kundan's Bazar (Books and Clothes) in Bodhgaya a few days ago. My attention rose when Jon mentioned an interest in tantra. We ran into each other a few times over the next couple of days. I told him of my sex work and porn and he asked if that wasn't draining and demoralizing. I told him it wasn't initially, though lately it had become a bit routine and professionalized... not necessarily a bad thing, but different.

I ran into him at a restaurant later and somehow conversation moved to my recent tendency to immobility and depression. I have these dreams and intentions of going and trekking or doing some outdoor adventure, and just traveling about, but when I get "there" the inspiration fades, or maybe I never get "there". My mother told me that when I was breast feeding, she had to hold me away from her body because if I got too comfortable, I would stop eating. I have thought of that often in recent years noting how I get someplace that is kind of comfortable, but don't move on to someplace/something that really makes my heart sing. I told Jon I thought perhaps I was just having trouble mastering keeping centered in the ever changing life of the traveler.

Certainly I have had an undercurrent of depression in my life, though I have had major breakthroughs and better and better periods of joy. The last two years have been difficult for me. Jon asked me why I was depressed and what I had done about it. I stumbled in my thoughts and words, not really wanted to admit that I was depressed now, even being a Reiki Master and all. Kind of feeling bad too, because I thought I had shed this pattern a few years ago when I got into Reiki in San Francisco. Now it really hit me, that I had fallen back into the depression pattern 3 years ago when I left San Francisco and became nomadic.

I told Jon I had done Reiki and prayer work on myself to try to shed the pattern. Jon asked me to name an ecstatic time in my life. It took me a moment to narrow in on one. Interesting because I know there are many many experiences that I have found joyful. I told him one... of the time when I decided to take up farming after graduate school. He asked if I couldn't do that now. I replied that it was no longer my time for doing such things... that was an old life... not that I might not return to it someday... but that it wasn't in the cards right now.

My head reeled a bit struggling to figure out why I was depressed. Sometimes I have thought to myself "I know I create my reality, and that I create these things that depress me, and/or choose to think depressing thoughts... and that is even worse because for some reason I still continue to do it!"

Within a few moments though, I started to feel better. At first I thought it was because I had thought "I wish this was over". I felt pretty good in spirits the rest of the day. Then evening came. I was supposed to have a date, but he flaked on the appointment. I started falling into thoughts of why are not lovers manifesting easily in my travels, why am I not being nurtured. I felt a wave of nasty emotions swelling up. And I hesitated for a moment, and thought well maybe I could meditate with a crystal or something. No use dwelling on what wasn't working for me. Within moments I felt an incredible high of energy swell through my body. Energized. Excited. I picked up a guide book and started to actually get excited about going to Ladakh... something that yesterday had seemed like what I ought to do because I would probably feel better there... but that I had no excitement about.

Now I was enthused! I soon began to wonder at this change. I had set the intention for such change in me, but I had done that before and it had not stuck. I slept and awoke in a great frame of mind as well. It dawned on me that this had all started with my conversation with Jon. So I confronted him later to thank him if he was sending me healing energy and to ask what he was doing. He humbly replied that he was just sending me heart energy "basically". I told him it was amazing.

He then offered me the advice, that I could take or leave he said, that I needed to be "more sexually responsible". I took this to heart. I noted that my latest tendency to depression had seemed to be more about my leaving my home in San Francisco. He said sexual stuff can go deep. I reflected on it. Certainly I have noticed that the last two or three years, my sexual desire has tended to come from a place of emptiness, rather than fullness at times. And certainly I could be more responsible in coming from a place of being sex and love and sharing that with people rather than not being sex and love and trying to gain that from others. I reflected and said nothing.

Over the next days I noticed myself more and more feeling like my "old self"... that is the "old empowered self" of my Reiki and sex embracing self when I lived in San Francisco and was at a "peak" in empowerment a few years ago. I felt my kundalini rise and excitement in all the eye candy about. I felt myself become more aware of what I wanted, who I was, and more focused on keeping to my spirit and my intentions. I had felt myself in a very similar state several weeks ago when I started the Soul Empowerment Transmissions ( ).

I realized what had really gone on for me was a complete struggle of my ego when I dissolved my life of residence in San Francisco and embraced being a nomad, a wandering mystic in a vague dream of who I am. I tried to shed myself of attachment to being a Reiki teacher, a healer, an escort, an artist... and become just a person who followed their heart and trusted the universe to provide abundantly in love, and food, and shelter, and money, etc. What glowed to me was rock climbing, swimming, climbing mountains... things that throw me into my childhood fears of not being strong/physical enough. At times my goal was then to be a backpacker/traveller/vagabond the world... but I didn't become attached to that ego-vision, perhaps because it brought up too many fears, perhaps because I was trying not to be attached.

I realized that my sexual activities didn't really cause the depression, as Jon suggested. Sometimes they fell prey to my whithered self confidence... struggling to be happy and proud of myself when I have "done nothing"... most of us derive our self esteem from doing things, and living up to some dream... conditional love... conditional belief in ourselves.

I could go on with introspections.

I mainly wanted to share with you the miracle of spontaneous healing... the miracle of what Jon calls "heart energy".

Perhaps you can feel it now... I hope you can!!!

Blessings from a happy DhamiBoo!!!

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The Mind of the Cells

I ran across a book called The Mind of the Cells, written by Satprem. It describes some of the "research" of a woman called "Mother" and Sri Aurobindo. It gets into the ideas of quantum and cosmic consciousness and the underlying web of energy that creates reality. Mother experimented with herself and this cosmic consciousness... Satprem quotes from her journals throughout the book.

I get lovely images of an elderly Mother having mystical experiences that sound similar to vibrating in the unconditional love that I often feel in Reiki sessions. Mother gets into the details of how our thoughts and consciousness choose reality on a thought by thought basis.

Mother says:

I looked, and I saw the power of thought over the body--it's phenomenal! You can't imagine to what extent it's phenomenal! Even a subconscious and sometimes unconscious thought acts and provokes fantastic results. I have been studying this in detail for two years--it's incredible! Very small mental and vital reactions, very small, which in our ordinary consciousness seem to have no importance at all, act on the body's cells and can create a disorder. But I know in an absolute way that if one can master all this mass of the physical mind, then one HAS power, one is the master: it's not a Fatality, it's not something that totally escapes our control, it's not a sort of "law of Nature" over which we have no power.

Mother notes how sticky Western medicine and it's consciousness is in hypnotizing us into being our diagnoses.

Satprem elaborates on the change in perception and reality when we step into the power of our cells and the universal grid of love and oneness. He claims that when we get into this transcendental state we actually move from the unreality of how we commonly perceive the world and move into the Reality of the True Law of the World and our full empowerment.

I don't know if the book is available outside of India, but it's an interesting read!
I particularly enjoyed a couple of key points in the book. One was that the consciousness of Western medicine and doctors is very sticky and hard to shake the hypnotic effect of Western diagnoses.

Thursday, August 02, 2007

Bodhgaya: The first Soul Empowerment Transmission

I arrived in Bodhgaya late in the day last Sunday after a grueling 29 hour journey from Gangtok, Sikkim. During the journey I had had glimpses of the transmission for soul connection that I was sending via distance around the world. I had a sense of people consciously tuning in from all around the world. I had hoped to arrive in time to do the transmission Sunday morning, but the bus ran very late. So it worked out that I did the formal transmission Monday morning from under the Boddhi Tree. Since energy goes through time and space, this was no problem.

I felt the most amazing energy, uplifting, gentle, powerful. I felt a mix of what I was receiving myself, and transmitting around the world. During the rest of the day, I felt my own self aligning more with my true spirit. Clutter and fears from the past few years disappeared. My mind felt clearer and clearer over the coming days. My sexual energy was back in a good way, emanating from within. I had visions of my own true nature and clarity about how I might limit or dishonor my true path. The entire week has felt very powerful. Emotionally, it has been up and down a bit, as I work through my choices in each moment. But I feel like I am making new grounds in assertiveness and communication, and new clarity within myself.

I am about to embark on a Shiva Pilgrimage (, hopefully meeting some friends from Gangtok. It feels like what I must do, though I am nervous. I am thankful that I am not going through much second guessing like I have been the last couple of years.

Wednesday, July 25, 2007

Soul Empowerment Transmission: Reconnecting with Your Highest Spirit: 29 July 2007

Live from Bodhgaya, Bihar, India!

On Sunday, 29 July, 2007, I will be offering a special distance blessing, an energywork session gifted to you via distance. The session will help you reconnect, and strengthen your connection with your Highest Spirit (Soul). The transmission of energy and light work will be from 8am to 10am in your local time zone (energy travels through both time and space). To participate, all you need to do is set the intention to receive, and remain in a meditative state for 2 hours. During this time you may be aware of energy moving within your body and aura. Blocks and clutter in your highest path will disappear. You will feel connected with your authentic self (aka Highest Spirit aka Soul).

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Each of us has a unique and divine Highest Spirit (Soul) which has chosen to incarnate in our individual physical bodies to learn, grow, and play in the physical realm. Its like a great stage play where our spirit explore and play out different scenarios. I like to believe it’s about having fun in they ways we can have fun in the physical form. We choose to be people to do the things people can do. Maybe next time, we try being a tree, butterfly, or just a Spirit in the ethers.
Our Spirits choose all the details of our life: our family, our sex and gender, our shape and appearance, and all of our experiences. This is seeing the world from an “empowerment paradigm”, in which we are not victims on any level. The advantage of this paradigm is that it gives us the power to choose differently in the future. If we are victims, then we are stuck and hopeless. By seeing reality this way, we can harvest our challenges and transcend them.

We cannot help but be connected to our Soul and Highest Spirit (I use these terms interchangeably). And because we are are always forgiven, we are never off our path. And yet there are ways we can feel and BE more connected, and there are paths we can take that are more joyful and true to ourselves. Apparent disconnections occur because of attachment, lack of presence, thoughts and actions that do not honor our heart, conflicting intentions, and ego based fears. These disconnections affect how we perceive our choices in life and the extent to which we feel good about ourselves and our life choices.

Some of our choices feel more conscious than others. This occurs for several reasons. One is that sometimes our Highest Spirit knows better than our small self. One is that sometimes we lack awareness of our Spirit because our minds are too busy and not fully present. And lastly, because we have too many intentions, thoughts, and counter intentions.

In Quantum Theory, consciousness affects reality. We all know the differences in experiences between an optimist and a pessimist walking down the same street. The complication to this example is that we each have multiple thoughts, beliefs, and intentions overlapping.

For example, perhaps I want more money, think that there is such a thing as too much money, believe I waste money, think that there is a scarcity of money such that if I have more, someone will have less, and think that it takes hard work to get money. The Universe, God, and Goddess will support all of those intentions, because the Universe is non judgmental and unconditionally loving in it’s support. What I will end up with is a bit of a mess. I will get money, waste it, feel guilty for having it, and never see easy ways to get money. Next throw in some other intentions, such as a home, boyfriend, and time to travel. You can see that it will be hard to be aware of what is happening.

These are the challenges of a quantum reality. Life becomes complicated because we are not clear in our intentions, and we have so many intentions and beliefs. There is really never any separation between us and our Spirit, but there is separation in our awareness. And we make choices that are not true to our individual spirits… our authentic self. We see someone else having fun and we try to do what they do. We should never try to be anyone other than ourselves or please anyone other than ourselves, because other people are better at being who they are than we can ever be, and they are responsible for their own happiness. Happiness comes from within, not without. It is attitude, not circumstance. I have seen workers making gravel from stones with a hammer in the outdoors in India. Some are happy. Some are miserable. And I have seen office workers living a life of relative luxury. Some are happy and some are miserable.

I am not saying we should not help others or do things that might make others happy, but rather that the best way to do this is authentically from our own heart. In the words of a yogi I met at Winter Solstice: the best we can do is to serve others, and the best way to serve others is by being our self. Joy is contagious.

And so though Spirit is always there, we sometimes create separations. We do things because we should rather than out of our heart. We do things we do not really feel good and authentic about. Spirit does not care or judge. But we care and judge. Spirit knows that life and soul and spirit are eternal. The physical form and reality always changes. Spirit does not care, nor worry about injury, death, decay. Change and death are the only constants in this world.

I remember one of my friends worrying about erosion on her farm. Her husband said, “You cannot stop erosion!” The Earth is going to change. The sharp mountains will erode into gentle hills. The Earth does not care… that is her way… to change, to age, to mellow. But we care. We are attached to our hillside and creekbed and clear water.

More importantly, we care because we know the congruity of our thoughts and actions and the incongruity. We know when we cling to a relationship or marriage that is no longer in good heart. We know when we cheat somebody because of fear or scarcity. And we choose to not forgive ourselves or others by clinging to some past event. Spirit forgives unconditionally. Spirit is ready to let the rapist try a different choice, to find love or pleasure out of mutual consent. Spirit is ready to let us recreate our marriage in a way that brings us pleasure. It is our small selves, our fearful egos that cling to holding onto past judgments.

It is all internal. If I believe sex is good, and I have lots of sex, then all is good. If I believe sex is shameful and have lots of sex, then I create disharmony in my self. One of my lovers said once that we could never be boyfriends because we have too much sex. I thought, “we can never be boyfriends because you think there is such a thing as too much sex!” To digress a little, it is all about attitude and being Present and in your Heart. It may be perfect and divine to have sex several times a day for weeks, months, even years. But one day it may be time to do something else. And the key is to listen and be present and change your habits at that time.

The more connected, aware, and integrated in our thoughts and beliefs and actions we are, the more peace we have. And we will more clearly see manifestation in our lives. This is the gift of spiritual practices, religions, meditations, yogas, and martial arts… the training of the mind. Karate masters spend years training the mind to believe and see only the reality that their hand chops a piece of wood in half. (Of course many religions and movements have ulterior motives such as their own power or continued existence.)

Throughout life we forget our path, we dishonor ourselves, we get confused. This creates disharmony in our minds and emotions, and can create disease and illness. Illness and disease are merely our physical forms way of showing us that something is out of balance in our life. When we are totally relaxed and in a place of unconditional love and joy, there can be no pain, no tension, no disease.

Life goes on and we become attached to our disharmonies. We don’t like our work, but we are attached to our coworkers, or paycheck. We fear change. We live in scarcity and think there is not another joy, home, way of being for ourselves. We forget that the world is unlimited in abundant potential.

Sometimes we just get confused. We have liked rock climbing, then we prayed for fluidity in life and suddenly feel drawn to surfing. We resist change and newness. Or maybe we prayed for a lover, and little do we know our lover is waiting by the movie house instead of the rock crag.
Our spirit knows. Our intuition is there to guide us. But we must be Present and attentive to Listen and Follow our Spirit. Ideally we are always aware and connected to our Highest Spirit and also to this physical reality: we are One in all Dimensions simultaneously.

And so you can see that it is helpful to reconnect your awareness to your Highest Spirit. To regain that awareness and feel that connection, you can do many things… mainly just being Present and doing what makes your heart sing… but yoga, Reiki, various healing modalities, spiritual and religious ceremonies, etc. are useful tools.

Not to be confusing, but even saying that you are ever in a state of disconnectedness from your Soul or Highest Spirit is a bit false. You and Spirit are always there. It is really your sense and awareness of connection we are talking about. You can never do anything wrong because you are always forgiven. But you can do things that feel better or worse. The purpose of this session is to help you feel Your Connection and Be Authentic to your True Highest Self.

I am offering this special Distance Blessing so that you may feel connected with your Highest Spirit and feel connected to Your Path. The stronger you are in your connection and the more your thoughts, choices, and actions are in alignment with your Authentic Self, the easier your life will feel, the more healing you will experience. Blocks, confusions, experiences of dis-ease in your life will disappear. Your Spirit knows.

I will be offering follow up sessions to help you maintain and remember your connection. Following sessions will also focus on specific aspects of your Life and Awareness.

What will happen during the session?

I will send Reiki and healing energies based in Unconditional Love, Joy, Abundance, and Empowerment to reconnect you strongly to your Highest Spirit, with complete awareness, understanding about who and what you are in this life. You will feel a heat start to flow in you navel in your tanden (below the navel near the generative organs) that spreads throughout your body and into your aura as blocks and clutter and “negative” energies in your energy grid and life pattern are removed. You will feel your awareness strongly in your body alternating with an awareness of being further and further out of your body until you feel awareness of your Highest Spirit, and then the Source (God, Goddess, consciousness of the Spirit beyond all which creates all, which “moves moves”). You may also feel other energetic and physical changes in your body as the realignment occurs. You may have visions of things your are releasing, or of things you need to do in your life. You will feel great relaxation, joy, and love.

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Tuesday, July 24, 2007

Soul Empowerment Transmissions: A Series of Distance Blessings

Soul Empowerment: Transmitting Blessings via Distance

Beginning July 29,2007, I will be offering the gift of a series of Soul Empowerment Blessings, Transmitted to you and others via distance. Each Blessing consists of specific energywork and lightwork to help you strengthen your connection to your Highest Spirit (Soul) with blessings of Unconditional Love, Joy, Empowerment, Abundance, and Fun!

The sessions are based on principles of Reiki and each person receiving the Blessings will receive according to their own intention and Highest Good. The sessions are offered as a gift to you and whoever wishes to receive them. Each session is dedicated to helping you feel connected to your Authentic Self and Highest Spirit and be more Empowered in your Life. Each session also has a particular focus to help you improve particular aspects of your Life. You may participate in whichever sessions call to you.

To participate, you merely have to set the intention to receive the Blessing, and be in a meditative state. Each Transmission will occur on a Sunday from 8am-10am in your local time zone. Spend two hours in a meditative state during this time, and then tap into the energy again whenever you need to. It is good to focus on the intention of the session during the week as well. The Blessings are permanent; the organization into weekly transmissions is merely for ease of focus and awareness.

If you feel called to, you may email me at to let me know your are participating, and also share your experiences of the sessions. If you find this transmission and website helpful, please leave a donation for DhamiBoo so you can enjoy the spirit of giving too (; or you can arrange another method of donation.

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Series I:

July 29, 2007: Soul Reconnection
The session will help you reconnect, and strengthen your connection and alignment with your Highest Spirit (Soul).

August 05, 2007: Calling Your Spirit Back
This session will help you achieve a true state of forgiveness and release the Past experiences to which you lose power.

August 12, 2007: Unconditional Love and Joy
This session will align you to the ecstatic awareness of Unconditional Love and Joy in your life.

August 19, 2007: Soul Empowerment
This session will align you and your Spirit to the Empowerment Paradigm so that you you can find your power in the Present and see the Perfection of your Past. It will erase victimhood and blame from your life.

August 26, 2007: Spiritual Health
This session is devoted to helping you find your true health spiritually. It will help your Spirit heal issues on the spiritual level.Spiritual dis-ease is created when our Spirits or Souls cling to truths that no longer serve them. This session will bless your Spirit with Unconditional Love, Joy, Empowerment, Abundance, and Fun!

Future Sessions (dates to be announced):

Series II:
Fun and Ease
Emotional Health

Series III:
Physical Health
World Series:
Earth Healing
World Peace
Booster Series:
Getting in Your Groove
Reiki Series:
Reiki I Training
Reiki II Training
Erotic Reiki I Training

Thursday, July 19, 2007

Judgment and the Taxi Driver

Transmuting judgment can be difficult. Taking responsibility for creating your life can also be difficult. Put the two together, and it takes the slyness of the fox, and the courage of the lion.

I had just arrived in Kolkata's International Airport, befriended a Czech woman, Martina. Together we set off to make our way to the city and lodging. We decided to hail a cab. We forgot the advice of a local gent who said to make sure the taxi used a meter. We hired a cab for 150 rs. As we pulled away from the curb, our driver made gestures and laughed with his friends, the other cabbies standing outside the cab. I picked up on his finger gestures and realized he was going to pull the trick of pretending he didn't understand that we met 150rs for the two of us, as opposed to 150rs each. We enjoyed a harrowing ride through the mayhem of Kolkata traffic, swerving between vehicles in spaces that seemed too small, nearly sideswiping richshaws, and even having a fender bender with another taxi.

When we go to our destination, we got out our wallets to pay. Sure enough, the cabbie tried to get 150rs each from us. We didn't have change and he held 200rs and wanted 100rs more. I was stuck in my judgment of the cabbie... another cheater taking advantage of tourists and language barriers. Martina fared better. She held the space for the cabbie to be honest. She said, "Come on, you know what is right... be honest. You know we agreed to 150rs for the two of us. Don't have bad karma. Give us our 50rs change." It took a few moments, and some repeating, and assertiveness. And the cabbie gave us our 50rs change.

In reflecting on this experience, I realize how often I hold the judgment of people to cheat me, and allow them to because I give into the judgment and don't hold space for their honesty.

Monday, July 16, 2007

Trading Stones

As on my last trip to S.E. Asia, my good friend Tanya Corona ( sent a couple of crystals charged with "the Bethlehem Grid" (Christ empowerment consciousness). The crystals are used to anchor this healing grid along the energetic ley lines of the Earth. They also have healing affects on those who carry them.

I meditate with them and ask where they would like to go. On my 2005 trip to Thailand and India, they led me and my Austrailian friend on some wacky adventures in Chiang Mai and Ladakh. This time, my experiences have been more mellow.

In Thailand on Kho Pha Ngan, I met a beautiful man named Yai. When I showed them the crytals, he couldn't keep away from them, and he lay holding them for hours enjoying their energy. I knew the Thailand crystal was for him and traded it with him for two sandy colored quartz stones he'd found locally.

During my travels I also pick up stones that call to me and often have a collection of six to twelve, knowing they are just passing through me to work their magic. In June I attended a Buddhist Prayer Retreat led by a young Rinpoche from Dali Monastery near Darjeeling. The retreat was at the Sherpa Gompa, a local temple in Darjeeling. I sat with my crystals while the local participants sat with their prayer beads. Martina, a Czech woman and practicing Buddhist whom I'd met in Kolkata was participating in the multiday retreat and had invited me to check it out.

I offered somewhat comical relief to the monks and Rinpoche presiding over the ceremony. Not being familiar with protocal I relied on Martina for guidance. The local attendees were mainly elderly women, who also tried to guide me. I joined in for two days and was often confused by the schedule. We had a break one morning and I asked when we'd start again, and I was told at 1 pm. I ran some errands and came back around 10am to find things in full ceremony. Martina told me I had missed out on the part where everyone gives offerings of money to the Rinpoche. A local woman plopped a kata (silk scarf used to give and receive blessings) with 10 rupees in front of me and waved me towards the Rinpoche. I pantomined to Martina if it was a good time to take the offering to the Rinpoche now? She motioned me to wait, then said I should give an offering to the two lamas who also were helping lead. I only had a 100 rupee note and a 50 rupee note in my pocket and Martina said go... go now. So I did my best to bow appropriately and give the scarfs and offerings, except I was thrown off because the third lama was not in the room. I did my best, then sat down to receive Martina's scolding that I should give all the monks (there were about 10 present) offerings. So I went out to make change, and came back and prepared to finish my offerings. Now Martina told me that I must always give an offering to the Rinpoche first. I was a bit flabberghasted, because I considered this a continuation of my first round, not a new round. But I went ahead and started with the Rinpoche again. When I gave him another 10 rupee note, he said to me "Why are you giving so much?" I shrugged my shoulders and finished my rounds. One of the monks asked what I was giving him money for as well. When I sat down I realized I ought to have just followed my heart which was content with the 10 rupees each I had given to each of the participants the day before. The Rinpoche and monks weren't worried about my protocol or offerings or lack of offerings. Just my friend Martina and the elderly women were worried about it!

About mid way through the ceremony, I felt myself in telepathic conversation with the Rinpoche. It was as if I were downloading my life story, my experiences and how I do my healing work. As the ceremony wrapped up I found myself in an ecstatic state with the whole world vibrating. I thought others might be in this state as well, but no one seemed to be. I chatted with the Rinpoche and monks during a break. I carried a stone from Thailand in my pocket, one that I had picked up in Krabi. It felt appropriate to the ceremony. When the ceremony finished, Martina and I went to Dali Monastery where the monks and Rinpoche resided. It was quite a ride with 9 of us crammed into the jeep. We picked up one monk along the way and he ran and jumped on the back in full monk robes!

I spent a couple of nights in the monastery. An interesting experience to be in a 300 monk all male culture. The day I was leaving I saw the Rinpoche and a group of monks in a jeep ready to leave for Pemayangtse Monastery in Sikkim. I passed them twice in the driveway as I wandered outside the monastery. I shook their hands and thanked them. The stone from Thailand sat in my pocket, fully charged. I had intuitively picked it up in the morning when I left my room. It was later that it dawned on me I needed to give the stone to the Rinpoche. So I wrapped it in red cloth and left it with monk to pass on to the Rinpoche.

A few weeks later, I groggily prepared to go to a friends village. He'd invited me to visit his family with him. As I decided what to take for a day, one of the stone's from Yai in Thailand felt like it needed to go with me. I put it in my pocket. I left my room. Then returned and picked up my ceremonial face paint for some reason. I was in a bad mood. Wondering why I was going with my friend. Low on sleep. Frustrated with myself over transactions of the night before. Later that day we sat in the parlor of a family that was dear to my local friend. The family had a son, who "wasn't quite right in the head", but he worked his magic well. He worked clown magic, and had a way of making people present with his words and actions. He might not have been "normal", but it was clear to me he channeled God well. His mother had a glow about her and though the family's English lacked, we communicated through my friend a bit. The woman went to the other room and brought me a stone... a Vishnu stone and gifted it to me. Then I knew the stone from Thailand in my pocket was meant for her and I gifted it to her. Not to be outdone and clearly wanted to honor her guest, she presented me with another stone, a white stone the shape of an egg. It was from Bodhgaya where Buddha became enlightened. She said if one had stomach pain, you could take the stone and put it in water, then drink the water and the pain would go away.

A little later, a girl came around with Tika paint.. the ceremonial paint Hindu's put on the third eye. She painted everyone in the room. Then I knew that I was to bless them with my ceremonial paint as well and they all readily accepted.

That day on the way home I lingered in the mystical energy state for some time.

My friend told me yesterday that he is going to see Sai Baba in a few weeks. He met a fellow Sai Baba devottee yesterday who asked him why he wasn't going. When he said he had no money, the fellow gifted him 3000rs so that he could make the trip!

Another stone is sitting with a young monk in Saanga Choling Monastery, Pelling, West Sikkim.

A collection is waiting in my room, waiting for the next adventure.

When I remember to carry one in my pocket and put my hand in and feel it, I always have a good day!

Fire The Grid

A friend of mine forwarded this link to me and it feels very powerful... check it out!!!

On this coming Tuesday, 07/17/07 at 7:11am EST, there will be a collective intention/prayer/meditation which will "Fire the Grid," helping to promote harmony on earth. Details and the story behind this event can be found on the Fire the Grid website listed below. The YouTube videos show the woman who manifested this event telling her amazing story and how the event came to be. This event will be powerful.
Fire the Grid Website:

Disillusionment and Disney Expectations

When I started travelling 3 years ago and first imagined travelling abroad and visiting mystical cultures, I thought I would be in a mystical space with people in other cultures. I thought I would walk into a Buddhist Temple and the monks and I would vibrate in the realms of Spirit together. Or I might walk into a village that worshiped some mystical religion and we would all vibrate in Reiki like energy and experience the world in some "altered state". Psychic experiences would be commonplace.

Since July 2004, I have wandered all over the United States (mainland and Hawaii) and spent extensive time in India, Thailand, Nepal, and Laos. My mystical experiences have been relatively few and far between during this time. Although many Westerners travel to the Far East on Spiritual Quests, I have experienced equally profound experiences in both the East and West.

In February 2006, I was in Pushkar, Rajasthan, India, and a German fellow who frequently visits India remarked, "America is a very spiritual country!" At first I resisted his comment, but then as we talked I realized that in someways the United States is on spiritual forefronts. The U.S. has experienced material wealth, and is now coming back to spirituality. Well, not all of the U.S.... but certainly many people are realizing that money and material things are not to be whorshipped, and are coming into a new way of spirituality.

Part of the new age we are in, is to bring spirituality into the world. Rather than being spiritual and separate in monasteries, the current learning is about how to be spiritually connected and in the world with family, community, and material things. It is about healing the former separtion between spirit and living in the world. It is about seeing all of this as Divine and living Divinely within it. It is always we who create separation with our judgments. And so the time now is about finding Oneness in Our world with all of our desires, things, society.

And now I find myself back in the East because my Spirit, my intuition, called me here. Last month I was at Wang Lung Ceremony offered by Yangthang Rinpoche at Pemyangtse Monastery in Pelling, West Sikkim, India. I sat down and immediately felt a strong and good energy from the Rinpoche. I felt myself in a space I have felt before during such times as receiving Reiki, giving Reiki, recieving acupuncture, during orgasm, participating in Native American ceremonies, participating in Radical Faerie rituals, etc. I think of this space as "touching the face of God", "being ecstatic", "being in the space of Unconditional Love", among other terms. I felt good.

The "puja" (ceremony) continued on for several hours and I grew tired of sitting on the floor. So I went outside. I struck up conversation with a monk who said that sitting on the floor was hard for those of us not in regular practice. He asked how I like the ceremony. I told him how I a felt a very powerful energy from the Rinpoche. The monk replied that I am lucky to be able to feel such things. Most people and monks cannot feel such energy! That is when it dawned on me that I had Disney expectations of being amidst people in various cultures that were always in a mystical state of energy awareness.

The Lesson is that I need to be in the State of Awareness that I would like to be in, and bring that into wherever I go. Like most of Life, it is about me and you... individuals... vibrating in our own highest Light and taking that Light wherever we go. If we are individually in a place of Joy, then we are achieving at least one point of Joy in the world and others will see, join, or not join according to their choice.

If I am in that "mystical state" that I desired to find in the world, then perhaps I will find others, but in the meantime, I will be how I am desiring to BE.

Wheels of Life--Chakras

In January, I happened across a copy of Wheels of Life by Anodea Judith and some things she wrote about the first three chakras differed some from other sources and resonated with me.

First Chakra: Feeling supported. Committment.

Second Chakra: celibacy sometimes is a path, but only if heartfelt, not if forced. The belief in a scarcity of ejaculate, and promotion of non-ejaculatory orgasm stems from cultures eating a lean vegetarian diet.

Third Chakra: balance of Divine Will with Desire.

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Thursday, March 15, 2007

There's Really Only One Thing to Do

So simple, so hard. So simple to remember. To take a breath. To ask yourself to be Present. To channel Unconditional Love. To be completely one with your Spirit and Body and all of your Dimensions. To connect. If you are attuned to Reiki, you simply tune in to the Reiki energy that is all around you.

Then you just follow the flows. Set some intentions. Follow the flows.

The mind wants to chatter. The ego wants to find fear and/or separation. And yet if you just take a moment and ask, it will all shift in a flash.

I've been listening to some Sikh chants that help attune us and clear out our blocks. I got an mp3 player and I listen to them over and over. And I feel them working me, working through me, aligning me. It's just one gimmic, one placebo, to catalyze the Oneness. Breath. Any number of actions from running to yoga, to looking at flowers, to sex, to meditation, to .... could do the same. Allow us to forget our separation and remember our wholeness.

No, it's not about giving up your uniqueness, or your passions, but rather in being whole with them. It's realizing that what you have and what you do may catalyze this state of Being, but they are catalysts, and really all we have to do is Remember to BE.

Yes, there is much unlearning to do with our stories of life. Work must be stressful, such and such must be hard, I only deserve to feel good if.... Conditions. Stories. Myths. Choose better stories. If you are going to work 40 hours a week at something, ask yourself to be relaxed and have fun at it. Why intend and perpetuate a story of stress about something you are intending to do for a large part of your life? Relationships, home, accounts. Ditto. Yes, things may be challenging, and yet if we apply the parable of the optimist and pessimist walking down the same street and having different experiences to the infinite thoughts/prayers/intentions both conscious and unconscious in our lives... we can shift our experience of Life. Attitude is everything.

I look at myself. I have nothing to do really. I mean I am trying to just trust that abundance will flow in all things in my life. I have no bills except a few hundred for a website. I am finding that pretty much clients so up without me working at it... as I have intended. I haven't quite given up on the website/email "advertising" yet. Yet I know that just as I asked for a Reiki student and met one serendipitously on a hike in Rajasthan, so I don't really have to do the computer annoucement self promotion thing. Yet I do. So it takes a little time. I want to and intend a camera. So what do I do. Patterns of perfectionism and lack of trust of salespeople. Instead of walking through life and popping into a store and finding what glows... I fall back into the I have to research and find the perfect cheap camera. Scarcity. Pefectionism. Mistrust. Mental effort. All these stories seep into my way of being. Now there is nothing wrong with any way of Being. There is nothing wrong with consumer research for instance. It is a matter of choosing to Be in a way that brings joy.

It's subtle. Well, sometimes, not so subtle. Several weeks ago I prayed and received Reiki and acupuncture to achieve clarity, courage, flow, action, relaxed trip preparations. And what happened? Well I felt great after the sessions. For the first hours or maybe day or two, I kept myself from the "thinking about" and "poor time management" patterns. Then after a few days, I slipped into computer addictive behaviors, thought and figuring out addictive behaviors... perfectionism, scarcity.

And I realize it's just a matter of constant awareness. I mean I could throw out the computer, and just have all things come to me in my walkabouts. And yet, I like the computer. The email. The ways to distribute information, to keep connected with people. And so it's a matter of going into the process with awareness. Feeling when the vibration drops. Is my thought pattern changing? Is it time to take a break? Is it time to re-prioritize?

It's easy in the sense that we all know joy... right? we all know how it feels to relax? And so we all know when we aren't feeling that. If we would just take a moment to realize... oh, I'm not enjoying this way that I am being. How can I change it?

Oh, it's tricky and yet easy. Both allowing and accepting, and yet some firm intention of how to BE with it all. Like the martial arts master who always saw his opponents as dance partners and greeted the process with a smile. That allowed him some detachment and relaxation that would not have been there if he saw it as a battle. Plus a dance reeks of trust and confidence rather than fear... for when we go to a dance we rather assume we will live!

So I resolve to remember. To try to trust that decisions will be clearly made at the right time. To remember that whatever I do will be Perfect. To be self aware, and change my attitude towards those things I cannot change, and of course to remember what I have the power to change.

And so there is really only one thing for you and for me to do right now... take a breath, Join the Flow. BE Whole. BE One. Connect.

I pray that you are in the Flow right now!

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